I went to the doctor and am suspected to have a chest infection. Only after the doctor asked me repeatedly if I have asthma. All he did was walk in the door and he said I sounded like I have really bad asthma. Well now I have a bunch of medication to help me feel better. Enough medication that could take effect before my girlfriend got off work so that I could actually enjoy her company and be able to breathe. She brought me tea and 2 movies for tomorrow. She’s so sweet.
I had such a lovely weekend. I’m so happy I got to see so many of my friends again. They are all so amazing. I love seeing how people change and don’t change after long periods of time. And they all seem to approve of the new things in my life. I’m just so happy.
Sometimes I think I am a terrible person. That I am mean and nasty and annoying and no one likes me because of it. I know it’s not true. Sometimes partially true, but I know I am a good person. I just have to get through it. The dark bits.
So I just received a letter stating that I will not be getting student loans. This means that I will probably have to give up on going to school for a year or longer. I can’t handle this.